Small announcment regarding my writing

I'm gonna be sharing it on a new blog (or as I like to think of it, my public archive)
https://birdsongdoeswriting.blogspot.com/
That way it's just easier for me to share my writing, because it'll be all in once space, I won't immediately die a little on the inside when looking back at what I've posted in the past...I gotta do a bit of a spring cleaning here at some point. There are things that I'm not too keen on keeping up.

Friend (Lucien v1)

 

Lucien sighed as he entered the room. It was beautiful, heavenly. It made his eyes burn. He

was, after all, the king of demons. Lucifer, Satan, Sin, the Adversary, the Morning Star,

Humanity's Downfall… All those names all belonged to him. However, ever since his

coronation, he preferred to go by Lucien Morningstar. It marked a new way of life for him,

to separate himself from his past actions. Today, he existed to keep the horde of demons

from destroying the material realm, or what others liked to call 'Earth'. He couldn't help

but be a little nervous about the prophecy from the Book of Revelations. Just what did the

Lord have in store for him? Lucien had already sworn to not interfere with life. His duty

was to keep the gates of Hell sealed. All he asked for in return was knowledge. He felt

envy bubble up inside him when he set eyes upon the Lord, his Creator. "Why am I

here? You have never once brought me out of my domain for any reason… So why?"

The Lord chuckled softly at Lucien's irritation. "You will see. This involves you."

Before Lucien could respond with a sarcastic retort, a golden-haired male entered the

room. "Woah!! This place is so cool! Where am I?" The recently deceased male asked

excitedly to the Lord. It seemed he had absolutely no clue who he was talking to.

An atheist perhaps? But…why would he be here? Usually non-believers end up in

Purgatory to learn of the Truth. Lucien was utterly confused. How did this involve him?

This man obviously wasn't a criminal. He would have automatically been sent to the

Demon Realm if he had. He crossed his arms and gave the Lord a confused look.

"OHH!! Are you God? That's so cool! I was never really sure if a higher power existed, so I

decided to play safe and not think about it too hard." The man laughed to himself.

Lucien's eyes widened at that response. "You… You aren't going to refuse to believe in the

existence of the Lord?"

"Of course not! The proof is right in front of me! Why wouldn't I consider the existence of

the Big Holy Cheese?" He gave the demon king a bright smile.

Big… Holy… Cheese? This terminology was not in any of Lucien’s books back in the palace.

A seraph leaned close to him and whispered, "He means Divine Leader. I heard that

this one isn't the brightest of the bunch."

"Ah." But again, what the hell did this have to do with hi-

"You must be the Big Demon Cheese!!"

Lucien's brain paused. What did this human just call me?

The man tilted his head and observed the demon king. "You look a lot different compared

to your representations…"

"How so?" Lucien was curious. He never gave a thought about how humans imagined him

as.

The male closed his eyes to recall the many paintings."Well, a lot of humans have painted

you as this small red-skinned thing. Sleek skin and a thin hooked tail. Overall, it's really

unpleasant to look at."

"Unpleasant?!" Lucien was absolutely furious now. "I'm beautiful! I'm the Morning Star!

The former favourite of the Lord!! How dare you humans call me physically unpleasant!!"

The male shook his hands and waved his arms in front of him in a panic. "No, no, no!

That's not what I meant! It's not my opinion. That's what others have thought. I didn't

really care. That depiction just happens to be the most popular." He paused, staring at the

demon lord again. "Huh… You give off some lonely vibes…"

Lucien’s anger was doused by that statement. Lonely? What was the man talking about?

He thrived in solitude! He hated being pestered by other demons, constantly attempting to

trick him into releasing the seal on the gate. How could he be lonely?

"From now on, I'm gonna me your friend!"

He couldn't believe it! This human was actually choosing him over eternal peace? What

was wrong with him?! He turned to the Lord, only to be met with a gentle smile.

The Lord stood from His seat. "Kayan Myrsky, are you sure you wish to go with Lucifer

to the demon realm?"

Kayan nodded excitedly. "Yup! I'm gonna be his friend from now on!"

"I don't need friends!" Lucien quickly interjected I'm an attempt to dissuade the man, who

appeared to be named Kayan. "I'm perfectly fine!"

"Nah, bro, my gut tells me you don't get out much. I'm gonna help change that!" Kayan

crossed his arms and grinned.

Lucien lifted a hand to hold his head. He could sense that there would be many headaches

in the near future. "Fine… Not like I have any say in the matter. I don't have that level of

authority outside of my domain."

"Then it's settled. Lucien Morningstar, from this day forward, you have a new friend," the

Lord smiled, though Lucien couldn't help but wonder if this was payback for the Angelic

Rebellion.

"Take care of him." Just which 'him' was the Lord talking about? It was a question that

would probably never have an answer.

Lucien sighed again. Now he knew he had no say. "Alright, Gremlin, let's go. I'll show you

around so you don't get lost."

Kayan cheered at that, and he rushed to his new friend's side. "This is gonna be great!"

How innocent of him… Sweet. Although he didn't know it, a tiny sliver of a smile appeared

on his lips as he showed the new demon the way home.

 

 

Remembered this old thing and decided to share one of my pieces of writing. It was written

a couple years ago, but I kinda wanna put down my stuff here every once in a while. That

way it's not just stuck inside Google Docs and...wherever else I put my stuff. I don't really

remember.

 

'IGHT, FLOKS

 PROBABLY NEXT TO NO ONE VIEW THIS, BUT IDC.

This Birb literally just realized now that this would be a great space for my rants, complaints, opinions, overflow of emotions and etc.! So I do want to warn that I do sometimes exaggerate (unless it's a serious thing for me), but thankfully not all the time, especially with things that are serious. Or at least to me, that is.

SO HERE'S WHAT I SAY A LOT:

• I have a habit of being very depressing, especially now that I'm cooped up in my den. My mental health drags me down a lot so...yeah...
• I complain. A lot.
• I share my irritation and/or angry moments to calm myself down, so please be aware that some words may just be a spur of the moment kind of thing. That's not common, though. Most of the time it's my genuine feelings that I've held inside for a long time.
• Sometimes I ramble.
• I am passionate about my Naruto lore but I hate Boruto. I will go on for literally hours on how much I hate that ungrateful brat. My mum knows this first hand.
• I talk a lot about my OCs (original characters), so please forgive any of my gibberish.
• And probably a lot more. Idk, my brain is bad when I'm put on the spot.

 

Ooh, my posts will now end with this logo I've made from Cooltext.com. Check it out, it's amazing! I use it all the time, especially for my OCs! (This logo will have colours that go similar to the colours of the background of the blog. Idk, I'm weird like that.)

Uuuggghhh

 So- dkjaelgk my brain blanked out. I literally forgot what I was about to write.

LET'S TRY THAT AGAIN.

So a few days ago I decided with the help of a friend that I should have a week-long break from a site in particular. The reason? I'm burning out. My creativity? Dying. I'm not sure what to do about it to try and revive it... There's so many collabs I'm doing that I'm still thinking I'm dropping because of the lack of activity on either or all sides. Or simply because they don't interest me anymore, which is most of them, tbh... I should ask if the other person is going to participate in it anymore or not... It's hurting my feelings that they seem to be ghosting it, even though I'm 98% sure they're not. I need to know if it's ever going to happen or not... In one of them, I need help with deciding on what my character's accident should be in order for him to have a vision, but they never responded to it... So I'm questioning if they're actually interested. Another collab that is a favorite of mine is one that the other wants to do but never goes through with... I wait. And wait. I've been waiting for a total of 3 months now, and I'm sick and tired of waiting for them.

So I'm going to set a rule with collabs with me. If one wants to do a collab with me and gets me all excited about it, and suddenly you just never talk about it again, they'll have to give me an explanation on why. I'm tired of being hurt by all of this. You're all doing collabs with everyone else, and it goes through successfully...but you ignore all the ones you're doing with me? It's not fair. Why are you doing this to me? Promising to do a collab but never acting upon it when I ask something, or when I have finished my character, but you never get to yours? I mean, I understand we all have out own lives, but you're all always working on other characters and finishing in a matter of days. This is cruel. You all say you love my characters, and are hyped to do a collab with me with the character that you claim to do a collab with... Why? Why are you making me feel like your just leading me on? It's not fair. I'm not going to let my happiness and effort go to waste. Not anymore. You get to see how happy I am, that I'm putting all my focus and time into that collaboration... Why are you making me wait after months of seeing you start collaberations with everyone else and finishing those characters before the one you promised me? I tell you when I'm stuck or why I'm slow on anything to do with my half of the collaboration. It's only fair to tell me why you're not contributing back.

Anywho, continuing with the rest of my break thing.

It was also destroying my sleep. Instead of my normal 1 or 2 am, it was 6 or 7 am. That's not okay. It was also because I was tired of seeing someone say hello to me, I reply, and then I never get a response. Ever. I wait, and wait, and wait for something back. I've waited months. I've even tried contributing into conversations! I tried multiple times each day! You're busy with your life, I know that, but when you all claim to like talking to me, but then when I try to talk and you end up looking over me? You look like you're lying to me in my eyes. I love you guys, your my best friends, and you guys know I literally can't lie about that. I have an extremely hard time trusting others.

It's getting so bad that I always feel like deleting my account. It seems like you'd all be better off without me anyways. From how you all treat me when I clearly state that I am in need of talking to someone and when I actually admit to needing help with something, just ghosting over me isn't helping your case of saying you're not lying when you say you care. I've cried over this and it hurts bad enough that self-harm feels like a way of relief. Of course, I'm too stubborn to break my promise to myself, so don't bother worrying about the self-harm bit. It would be nice to not feel the desire to, though.

Welp, I guess I needed to get all of that off my chest...

- Birdsong231

I Discovered the Best Way to Relieve Stress

Today I realized something that will change my life for the better.

 

Stress is a horrible thing. Do you know what makes it worse? Waiting. Waiting on whatever is making you stressed will only get worse in the long run. Never make it wait. It'll damage you mentally, physically, and even emotionally. I've been stressed for a long time, since I was a young child. I come from a financially challenged family, so I've had to learn some things the painful way. But today, I have decided to end one part of my large list of stress causes, and it has made me feel so much lighter.

 

So I advise to anyone who will ever read this post, please do not let stress sit. The pain grows every single day.

I'm safe

I forgot that last month I planned to post the I'm safe and healthy! Covid-19 has not attacked any of my family, as far as we know. School in public has closed down, but it's still up online. It won't help my mental health, though. Last month I was so depressed that I got close to harming myself... This isn't doing well with my anxiety and depression.

Well, I'll do my best to check in just in case there is someone who reads my blog, which I doubt. ;u;

Minecraft -- Building

I honestly prefer to make the “box” look. You can make it look good without spending hundreds of hours doing a difficult look that may look absolutely awful the creator’s opinion. I can’t stand trying to make detailed houses, because I like simple but elegant. Wood? I like to match the most similar looking wood together. Adding windows, maybe different block-type walls, makes it a bit more interesting. (I can never add metal. I can’t stand it. It actually hurts my eyes.)

I’m a perfectionist, though. I can’t do the, again in my opinion, “disorganized” look some people prefer. I will go insane if I try to do that, because I will ultimately destroy it completely and start over how I prefer. Some of the designs interests me, but the roofs(?)? They make me cringe because both, or more, sides almost never look the same. That’s why I choose to do a few layers of slabs and/or stairs. I mentally and emotionally can’t stand it. This game is about personal creativity. I plan to make a better looking type of builds, but I just can’t do some designs people like because of my perfectionism. Perfectionism doesn’t mean perfect to everyone else’s eyes. It means it looks perfect in their own eyes. Me? I don’t care what others think of my creativity. (Unless, y'know, it’s art irl…)

I like to have these simple details:
- A “box” look. Not everyone likes the “I have way too much time on my hands” look.
- Four to five block tall outside walls. Width depends on my mood.
- Windows. Windows everywhere. (Although if the spaces in between each window cluster don’t match, I will add more space in the main structure.)
- Double doors.
- If I have the time and right mood, make a slab and/or stair roof.

 Overall, my perfectionism with the main structure gives so much space that I have absolutely no clue how to use it. That’s why I try to make it as small as my poor self can allow. If there isn’t enough space on the main floor, I simply add another.

In drawing, most people like my style of doing things. Some even try their hand at my style, which makes me feel so honored!

Little Teapot but it's a Duckling instead

This is what happens when it's quiet, you leave me alone, and don't give me anything to do. And I'm so tired I can't really think right. Please send sleep to this tired Bird...

I'm a little duckling, short and stout
Here are my wings, here is my beak
If I get all steamed up, hear me quack
Leave me alone and let me swim

GUYSGUYSGUYSGUYSGUYS

I'M FINALLY OVER 100 POUNDS
IT TOOK TEN YEARS
BUT I FINALLY GOT IT
103.6 LBS

That's basically all I wanted to say. Because that is extremely important to my, tbh.

Forks

Me: *grabs yogurt* *looks through cutlery drawer*
Me: No teaspoons, huh? I don't like using tablespoons...that's a last resort...
Me: *looks slightly to the left* There's a ton of forks here...
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Me: *grabs fork* I've done it before, and I can do it again. I want this yogurt.


Yeaaah, I actually did use a fork. There were no teaspoons. ;-;
The fork idea actually worked, tho. o.o Better than a spoon. Maybe I'll use a fork next time on purpose?